1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Fuck.. I hope so. 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Hell Ya, I was swagged out at 18. 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? Today. All fucking day. 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I try to daily. It’s good for my health. 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? I think so, but i dont care. I’m happy and he’s happy so fuck it. 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? EVERY SINGLE DAY. My emotions are based on music so im gonna go with YES. 7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Pajamas & A cami 8. How often do you listen to music?
EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY JUST ABOUT. 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?
I kind of hope so. 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
social. 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’? yup 13. What about ‘S’?yup 14. Can you drive a stick shift?yup 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?nope 16. Are you going out of town soon?yup 17. When was the last time you cried?yesterday. 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?almost daily. 19. If you could change your eye color, would you? nah 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?right now, yup, & im absolutely head over heels for him. 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.fighting with her. it hurts. 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?extremely. 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?yupp 24. What are you sitting on right now?couch 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?yup (: 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?umm..no i get everyone i want at some point or another. 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? not sure 28. Do you get a lot of colds?noo 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?aero 30. Does anyone hate you?nah i dont think 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?nope 32. Do you like watching scary movies?yesss 33. Do you want your tongue pierced?noo 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?this one. 35. Did you have a dream last night?no 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?earlier 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? maybe, depends on whoever thinks they can change mind about marriage and make me fall in love with them. 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?i know someone does 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?i hope so 40. Did you have a good day yesterday?hell no 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?yes 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?yes 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?yes 44. What’s the best part about school?I got nothing. 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? Too Many. 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? Nahh We just text. 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?Constantly. and then i try to analyze them til i figure them out. 48. Were you single over the last summer?Kind of… 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?Hell No. 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?Studying for my ASL test tomorrow. 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?Nahh i kinda love him. 52. Are you nice to everyone? Most of the time. 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? YES 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes. 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Yup. 56. Do you think you like someone? Yup 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? Yup 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Boys 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? Yes 60. Do you hate anyone? Haha yea a few people 61. How’s your heart? Pretty broken up but it’s slowly coming together 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? Yup..that thing. 63. Have you ever cried over a guy? Yup 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? I can think of a few people 65. Are your toenails painted pink? Nahh french 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? Nope! 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? Secretly, Yes cuz I feel like he was comfortable enough and trusted me enough to do it around me. 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? Yup 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? The ex. 70. How do you look right now? Like shit. 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yup. 72. Can you commit to one person? I already am. 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Yup! JoeyFish! 74. Have you ever felt replaced? HELL YES 75. Did you wake up cranky? Always 76. Are you a jealous person? EXTREMELY 77. Are relationships ever worth it?Every Second 78. Anyone you’re giving up on? My Dad 79. Currently wanting to see anyone? Yup.. 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? fucking work. 81. Last person you cried in front of? Chris 82. Is there someone you will never forget? Ryan & Ashley 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? I hope he is. 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? I think i’d be happy. 85. Are you over your past? No. 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?yup 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?yup 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?Id accept the apology but i wouldn’t be interested in getting back together. 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Wouldn’t have to cuz he lives with me. 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?Yup 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?i hope so! 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? yup 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? Yup 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? Yup and Great 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? Somewhat 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? HELLS YEAH.. thats why I’m with him. <3 97. Who do you have texts from? Boyfriend, Coworkers, Classmates and mom and sister. 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Well fuck ya then. 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?Yup 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?Nobody. 101. Ever kissed under fireworks?Um Yup 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? Everytime I see him. <3
I’ve never felt so out of control in my life. THE SIMPLEST FUCKING THING. and its throwing me for a fucking tailspin. I’m so tired of feeling like i cant even hold my own. I dont want to depend on Chris or anybody else. I dont want to have to worry about needing help with this shit.I should be able to do this on my own and now i cant. now i wont be able to. That blows me more than anything i’ve ever felt in my entire life. I want to run away right now. by myself. from everything and everyone. I’m so tired of life. I’m so tired of this life. This was the whole point. To be able to do it alone. To be able to fend for myself. I guess my story really does just keep repeating. I guess ill die before i can stand on my own two feet.
There is a chemical in a girls’ brain is released only two different times in her life, when she has sex, and when she breast feeds her baby. This chemical emotionally connects her to another person for the rest of her life. Us guys? We only release this chemical when we bond with our children. So if you think sex is a game and go around fucking as many girls as you want, remember that you can mentally mess this girl up for the rest of her life. If you’re still friends afterwards then whatever, but she will always feel some sort of feeling for you, just because of the chemical.
It’s called Oxytocin, it’s actually released when a woman gives birth as well. But this is so true… sex is more than just a game, and this is a clear reason that explains why humans were only created to have sex with just one person. Doing it with multiple people will have a very strong negative effect on your relationship with the person you want to be with for the rest of your life. I wish more kids knew about this… not that this should be your only motive not to have sex before marriage, but it is one of the most important.
.Taking it one day it a time.. or as it hits me.
.24 Years young.
.Going on 12.
.Placed in New Orleans, Louisiana, USA.
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